Snowflakes

Snowflakes are kisses from Heaven...It is snowing outside right now.
     This is something I believe my son knew I needed today. In October I had the essure procedure done. Three months later they do a test to confirm you child bearing days are over. I know we made the right decision but knowing is bittersweet. I feel the only good I have done in this world is give birth to my beautifully amazing children. At the same time I know many couples wish they could have just one child and I was blessed with four. Three that I get to physcially touch on a daily basis. The risks for us to have another child are too high. If I were to have another the children I have on thie Earth right now could be forced to live without their mother. All because I love babies. Foster changed me so much. I wish he was here. More on that later. 

Helping Others

I can't believe how much my life has changed since Foster came and left. I have learned that you do not have to grieve alone. There are councilors who can help you learn spiritually heal. For me this was something big because when Foster died I thought my relationship with God was gone too. I have learned to heal. Call on him in hard times. God is always with us. When you lose a child it is one of the most tragic events that can happen in your life. When you have someone helping you spiritually repair your heart and soul it can change you. I want to help others. I want to help ease their pain in any way. When I have my degree in psycology I want to help so many people. Mostly, parents who have had to bury their children. Nothing changes you more and I want to be there. I want to be the compassionate friend who don't give up on them. It will be so nice when I can do what I feel calling me in my heart.
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Our Journey

My blog is going to be a mother's journey through the loss of a child and learning to live without him. I have struggled with a relationship with God in the last two years. However when Foster died he saved my life. He brought me back to God, the only person who could help me spiritually and make me whole again. I hope other parent's find this blog as an inspiration and know you are a survivor. A SURVIVOR! Each and every day you have made it and for the love of our children gone too soon we will keep surviving. Each day we get stronger and our children are never far from our hearts.